What is my worldview? What is my drive?

​One day, Susan was frustrated to complete her work and desperately asked me for help.
Peter: please help me otherwise I will lose my job.
Me: It may be good for you to consider changing your job.
 
Peter is angry to regard me as selfish and cold-heart.
 
People often describe me as an introvert. I love to spend time alone, speak little, and work at my own pace.  Very often, I appear in slow action because taking action is my weakness because I try to rationalize every decision instead of executing it.  Isolation and low-profile manner make me hard to team up with people to do the work.   Too much reliance on self-effort will slow down the working progress to leap forward.
 
Studying the enneagram helped me understand my worldview and motivation.
 
What do I want? I want more and get used to deep thinking and learning.
The drive is greediness by reserving as much as possible.
 
While many people buy luxury stuff based on spontaneous desire, I will take time to think about the justification of the value as if I am a penny pincher.  It is quite a big deal for me as I will consider if I pay for this luxury, the money in my wallet will become less.
 
I regard the world as operated by finite resources in scarcity as if playing a zero-sum game. Consumption means loss. I adopt the scarcity model of pizza. I won't have much left if you take a slice of it.
 
It is not easy for me to get along with my boss. I hate to work on a tight schedule. When my boss criticizes me for not working hard enough, I will focus on improving the system.
 
What is the hard part of confining my happiness? How can I achieve a breakthrough?
 
Infinite of abundance vs Finite of Scarcity
Learn to get over the feeling of finite scarcity of resources due to the scaring of shortage. 
Open my eyes and my guts to the wondrous smorgasbord of life.
Believe that I am prosperous to receive and enjoy the abundance of: 
Health
Relationship
Time
Knowledge
Comfort
Beauty
Wealth
 
Scaring for the shortage is merely a feeling or an opinion. When I feel the abundance, I will no longer keep checking the gain and loss on the balance sheet. 
I would get used to creating more value for realizing my abundance by breaking through my self-limiting beliefs.
 
Like eating a buffet to find an abundance of food available.
No rush to get my share. 
I know I can fill up my plate as much as I want.  I won’t mind the one next to me taking the food I like because there is plenty and the food will re-fill. 
 
How about you?
 
What is your worldview or core beliefs?      
What do you want to focus on others that provoke conflicts?      
What is your drive for acting the way you do?     
How do you act around someone you do not like? Judging/dismissive/indifferent          
What is the core drive of your emotions?
Fear/anger/jealous  
How does your emotion affect the way you treat others? Confrontation/Power over/Pathetic/pushover      
What are your expectations of others?        
What are your expectations of yourself?     
What is the one particular lesson you shall learn to reverse the repeated tendency?     

​Explore your personality on enneagram

#1. Perfectionist
#2. Giver
​#3.    Performer