​​Good morning, London! ​I like to enjoy a full English breakfast to uplift my energy to start my day. Full breakfast should include bacon, sausages, mushrooms, tomatoes, beans, black pudding, large eggs, and a few slices of bread. Oops! It looks a bit heavy.

If you want to explore the city, start your trip from Westminster's underground exit and walk towards Big Ben while enjoying the beautiful Westminster Palace. As you reach Parliament Square, you might see numerous protesters holding banners and proclaiming their grievances. Don't forget to catch the changing of the Guards at Buckingham Palace by late morning. If the weather is good, you can rent a bike and ride around Hyde Park.
The Tower of London is within walking distance of London Bridge. It is a popular tourist attraction known for its crown jewels and legendary tales. The River Thames adds to the beauty of the place, especially when seagulls fly overhead. Drinking at any time of the day is acceptable in London. However, it's not uncommon to come across people who have had too much to drink and are stumbling along the Thames River without being aware of their surroundings.

​Traveling by bus is a great way to see more of the city, but it can be rather annoying due to traffic congestion. On the other hand, taking the underground is very convenient, and the old tube stations like St. James Park or King Cross are spectacular because of their Industrial Revolution engineering design. Have you heard the touching story about the London Underground's public voiceover messages? Years ago, the voiceovers were recorded by several artists, including Oswald Laurence, who was an actor in the 1960s. After Oswald passed away in 2001, his widow, Mrs. Laurence, used to go to the station every day to hear her beloved husband's voice again. The station was the last place where it was possible to remind his voice.

​If you are a fan of Jane Austen, you would like to visit Chawton House in Hampshire. Jane Austen lived in Chawton to produce my beloved classic fiction of all times: Pride and Prejudice and Sense and Sensibility. I don’t know much about 19th-century England, but it must be hard for a female to rebel against the social repression and code of hierarchy in pursuit of true love and romance. Strong female characters, costume drama, artificial social conventions, and family obligations abound in Jane’s stories. A woman in love is beautiful. You’re lucky if you find someone who would care about you more than anything. He would allow you to act ridiculous, caprice, naïve, and silliness like a child. You don’t need to hide from who you are because you know he won’t laugh at you, judge you, and betray you. 

William Wordsworth, an English Romantic poet from the 18th century, was enchanted by the beauty of nature. He believed that the scenery and landscapes of nature were the perfect inspiration for creative minds and purity of soul. I would love to visit Wordsworth House in Cockermouth, Cumberland, to follow in his footsteps and see if the golden daffodils he wrote about are still growing beside the lake, beneath the trees, "fluttering and dancing in the breeze" and "tossing their heads in sprightly dance". I wonder if the daffodils are as beautiful as described in Wordsworth's poetry. I'd love to take a closer look, and I'm sure you would, too.

​William Morris, a famous artist and writer from the late 19th century, once described Bibury as the most beautiful village in England.  It is convenient to take the National Express from London to Cirencester and then catch a taxi directly to Bibury.  Once you arrive, you'll never be short of amazing things to see, like the famous Arlington Row.  The site is a beautiful row of stone cottages surrounded by lakes, flowers, and scenic views.  And the fresh aromas from nature uplift our subconscious mind that the good things are always with us.

​If you're a wine lover, you probably like to join Scotland's distilleries single malt whiskey tour. The Macallan's 30-year-old single malt whiskey is worth trying, especially since it was Sherry Oat Cask Mellowed and received a score of 95 from Michael Jackson (an alcohol expert who passed away in 2007). If you enjoy whiskey, you might also like beer. Harvest Sun (white beer) and Midnight Sun (dark beer) are delicious options. Innis & Gunn beer stands out due to its aromas of vanilla and toffee, hints of citrus, and light oak flavor.

​The Royal Brigg umbrella represents British craftsmanship, with a rich history dating back to 1836. The brand has supplied umbrellas to members of royal families, prime ministers, and individuals. The umbrella is manually operated and does not have an automatic open feature. The canopy is available in two materials: nylon or traditional luxurious silk. The umbrella also features a unique shaft and frame. Some people may think British products are rarely fashionable as the product itself remains unchanged for years, but their products are the most durable that you can use for life. Timeless is beautiful.

​I love the scent of lavender. Pleasant fragrances can bring us happiness and awaken our senses and minds. A company, namely Yardley, has been producing soap and perfumes since 1770. It is famous for producing a signature scent called English Lavender. While I couldn't tell the difference between English and French lavender, the product has received a reputable Royal warrant. Yardley used the finest species of Lavandula angustifolia to make the oil, unlike other producers who used lavender leaves to create spike oil.

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​I haven't enjoyed visiting the zoo since I turned fifteen. While the animals were in jail, feces were lying around, overwhelmed with bad smells, and they looked so bored. If you're interested in experiencing wildlife, why not consider a trip to Africa?
 
It’s great to explore the big five in Africa Safari, Kenya. The big five refer to the lion, elephant, leopard, rhino, and buffalo. You should see wild animals in the morning as they hide in the afternoon.  
The lion runs fast to prey on the giraffes (or the weaker wild beast). On the other hand, the prey must outrun the predator, or it will become its meal. Both the prey and predators live a difficult life to struggle for survival.​

​Riding in a hot air balloon and witnessing the annual animal migration from a bird's eye view is an incredible experience. Every year, up to two million wild animals travel in a clockwise direction between Kenya and Tanzania, covering a distance of around 1800 miles in search of food and water.
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My friend, John, told me his experience in Africa riding the hot air balloon some years before was a bit scary.

John rode the air balloon with the other nine passengers.​

John asked the balloon pilot: "Why did all those hot air balloons not  fly in the same direction?"

Pilot: "It is normal. The balloon flight path depends on the wind condition and pilot control."

John: "Had an accident occurred before?"

Pilot: "Yes, sometimes accidents do happen. I think this time is ok."

John: "How long have you been working for piloting the balloon?"

Pilot: "Oh, me? I learned the piloting skill and practice five times, and then I can do the job."  
 
John: "Do you need a license to do the job?"

Pilot: "Yes, I used three hours, and then I was eligible to get the license."

The balloon was not moving stable, and the pilot seemed unsure of where to land the balloon.  The passengers grasped the basket tightly and prayed for a safe landing.

​The balloon finally landed on the sugar cane field, which was not in the planned location. They stayed on the ground for half an hour, waiting for the crew to collect the passengers and equipment.

​It sounds attractive when I find the description on the web saying “Nowhere else on earth can you wake up among all the trappings of an elegant baroque chateau - brocade sofas, gilt mirrors, beaded chandeliers and paneled walls - and be instantly transported into one of the most famous African landscapes with just one glance out the window of the lodge.” Would it be great to take a break to enjoy the time of exotic wildlife and allow ourselves to lose track of our daily routine for a few days in Ngorongoro Crater Lodge? 

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​Nijō Castle was the residence of the ancient Tokugawa Shoguns regime in Japan. The castle complex comprises Ninomaru Palace, ruins of the Honmaru Palace, and various supporting buildings and gardens. I loved the interior decoration of golden leaves, wooden crafts, and wall paintings. The palace corridors have a unique feature called the "Nightingale Floor" (uguisubari), which produces a bird-like sound if someone walks on it. This sound was a security measure to alert the guards in case of an assassination or theft attempt.

​The Ryoanji Temple rock garden is a puzzling masterpiece, consisting of 15 rocks of varying sizes arranged within a rectangular space spanning 340 square meters. One of the unique features of this garden is that no matter what angle you look from, you can never count the total of 15 rocks. At least one of the rocks will always be hidden from view, adding to the garden's mystique.

​Shirakawa village is one of the most beautiful villages in the world. The triangular shape of Gassho-style houses with thatched roofs occupied the mountainous region was spectacular. These steep thatched roofs look like the hands folding for prayer. The slope of the house’s roof is inclined at 60° so that falling snow will slide off the roof.

​Enjoy the calming and romantic atmosphere of a Japanese spa year-round at Japan Osen, perfect for relieving stress.

Summer - you’re relaxing when wearing the bathrobe to walk around freely.
Autumn  -   you feel like drowning in a sea of reddish maples in a Fall.
Winter -    I love soaking in the hot wooden outdoor spa and watching the steamy spring water blend with the snowflakes.

Japan has a variety of onsens, which can be indoor or outdoor, private or public. The color of the spring water depends on its mineral content. For instance, if the water has a deep yellow color, it indicates that it is rich in iron, while water rich in sulfur minerals will look milky. However, most people prefer clear spring water. Yufuin Onsen is one of the most popular onsens in Japan. It is located in Ōita District and is famous for Mount Yufu, which stands at 1583 meters high and is the landmark of Yufuin. The Yufu mountain landscape is known for its morning fog during fall and winter, which creates a unique natural atmosphere. Near Kinrinko Lake, a small local outdoor onsen is gender-mixed.   Are you worrying about the hygienic issue? Come on! It is a hot spring! Can’t it clean by itself? But remember you should clean yourself in a separate washing area before getting into the spa water.

​Cherry blossom viewing is a fantastic experience.
The blossom period of cherry lasts for 7 to 10 days and takes place across different regions. The blooming starts in Okinawa in January, moves to Kyoto and Tokyo by the end of March or early April, and then reaches the northern area of Hokkaido. Various types of cherry trees produce colors of blossoms in light pink, dark pink, yellow, green, and white. Some blossoms appear as white flowers and then change to pink over a few days. When cherry blossoms spread over a forest of trees, the beautiful sight of petals falling like snowflakes creates a romantic atmosphere. People enjoy having picnics with their friends and family while viewing the cherry blossoms, making it a time for gathering, cheering, and chatting.

​Gion is a spectacular geisha district in Japan, featuring a unique classic style of design for Japanese townhouses and tea houses.    Geisha are traditional Japanese female entertainers dressed in classical kimono and occasionally walk around the street to brighten your day by surprise.  ​   Did you know that the second Monday of January is the Coming-of-Age Day? It is a national holiday in Japan, where young girls who have turned 20 are honored for transitioning from childhood to adulthood. On this day, the girls wear traditional kimonos and visit shrines to express gratitude to the gods and their ancestors for their blessings.

​You can find the best kaiseki in Kyoto. Kaiseki is a traditional multi-course dinner with a combination of delicious taste, elegant tableware, and artistic food culture.   The restaurant is excellent at choosing the freshest seasonal ingredients and utilizing various cooking techniques, such as frying, deep-frying, barbecuing, and boiling. Each dish is carefully prepared with high-quality ingredients and served in small portions. The chef is like an artist who creates an aesthetically pleasing food presentation.

​Are you a fan of soft-textured desserts? Japanese mochi, a rice cake, is an excellent option. How about the taste? I’m not sure, but the performance to make the soft texture is impressive.

​On Children's Day (5th May), a 5-year-old Japanese boy saw the neighbor raising a large paper carp streamer and no wonder he begged his mom to make one for him.  It is common for Japanese families to have the traditional practice of hanging up carp streamers to bless the children.   The flying carp streamer is a signage to express the parent's hope that their children will be healthy and strong like the swimming carp.   ​If you get to Gifu (Chūbu region of central Japan) in spring, you will probably catch up on the traditional Washing Carp Streamers Festival. 

A Cat bus will take you to the Ghibli Museum in Mitaka, Tokyo. Totora is welcoming you at the entrance. What do you expect from there?

-   Ghibli characters, plants, flowers, and animals are handcrafted on the windows and lamps.
-   watch a short animated film directed by Miyazaki Hayao.
-   A five-meter-tall Robot Soldier (from "Laputa Castle in the Sky") is standing in the grassy rooftop garden for his guardian job. 

Watching children playing around and they are having so much fun. According to research statistic, while a child laughs 300 times a day, an adult laughs only five times per day. What a big gap! The adult is too serious, leave yourself some time for pure silliness and happiness, like a child.

When you are visiting Japan to take a photo in the busy urban street, don’t neglect the scenes from the ground, the trench covers.  The Japanese government encouraged cities to design creative and amusing themes for their trench covers.  

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​Everywhere in the world is embracing the vibrant of color. I love traveling to explore the beauty of nature, culture, and the coloring of life. 
Have you ever wondered how colors affect our mood? They can influence our emotions and reactions to our environment. What is your favorite color?

1.   Passion Red For Adventure

Color: Red
Sceneries: Ayers Rock,   flamenco  dance,  lava flow on the  Big Island in Hawaii

Red is a color that has multiple connotations. It is often associated with passion, assertiveness, and romance. However, it can mean danger or threat, as seen in the color of a fire engine or the stop signal. When you desire something that carries a certain amount of risk and danger, it becomes challenging to pursue. After all, nothing in this world is guaranteed.
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William Feather once said, "Adventure is exhilarating and enjoyable, but it can also bring fear and uncertainty." To get the most out of life, view it as an adventure. The question is, do you have the courage to follow your intuition and pursue what you desire? Fear is not something to hold you back but rather to dance with.

We almost always have made choices that have left us disconnected from ourselves and our true passions. Those choices are usually safe, practical, and earn us the approval of others.
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 What is your choice?   ​ Backpack or  Samsonite.

2.  What Do You Think Green Nature Can Do For You?

Color: Green
Sceneries:  Bibury cottages, Giethoorn in Netherlands, Amazon jungle, mountain towns in Switzerland

How does the color green make you feel?
I associate it with hope, peace, security, and a calming effect. Have you ever felt exhausted and overwhelmed by the hustle and bustle of city life? Airing out your house by adding flowers and plants is a simple way to make yourself feel better. Sometimes, it's good to walk along a riverside and enjoy the smell of green. The natural fragrance from trees and flowers can awaken your subconscious senses and remind you of the good things happening around you.
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What do you think nature can do for you? It happens to provide healing power to replenish your energy for creativity. The beauty of nature has the magic to inspire your wheel of thinking to find more creative ways to solve your problem.
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Where is your favorable scenery to feel the tranquility of green nature?

3.  Yellow Sunshine.   Brighten Up Your Day  To Become Wonderful

Color: Yellow
Sceneries:  daffodils, sunrise and sunset, summer yellow flowers

While some people see yellow as associated with sunshine, light, hope, happiness, and wisdom, others would like to label yellow with decay, old, sickness, and dullness (like yellow tree leaves, old books, and papers). What does it all mean? You decide.
How we see the world is more important than how the world is. Susan is my friend who told me she hated yellow as it seems like sickness and dullness.  
She hates growing old and dislikes to mention her age. 
Are younger people happier than older people? 
My mom is 70 years old and always feels the wisdom of her years. She always has a story to tell and has little to worry about jobs and responsibilities.
One day, I asked my mom if she was worried about getting older. She replied, "Yes, I am old, but that doesn't matter. I am happy with my life right now."  It is up to you to view the world, whether as bright and sunny as yellow sunshine or as dreary and dark as decaying leaves.

     
4.  Don't Turn "White" Thinking  To  Become Cold Feeling

Color: White
Sceneries:  Santorini islands, Antequera city in Spain, South Pole, snow

The color of white gives us a feeling of purity, cleanliness, safety, perfection, and innocence. I love the white color Cycladic houses in Santorini that are so beautiful to become one of the hottest destinations for honeymoon. In Eastern culture, white is a symbol of death and mourning.
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White is also associated with cold feelings with snow, ice, and winter. Living in an icy place is not uncommon, but feeling cold in a relationship with your loved ones does matter. Some people are too aggressive in dealing with others to discuss every issue. This kind of person is wearing the white hat of thinking (refer to "Six Thinking Hats" written by Edward de Bono) and relies on facts and information to make the analysis or justify his points so that he thinks he is always right. What is the point even if you win an argument but damage the relationship with your loved one?

5.  Openness to Blue Ocean and Sky
 
Color: Blue
Sceneries:  Smurf village and hotel, Hawaiian surfing, Great Barrier Reef

What color is your mood right now?  You want to get away from the blue mood (melancholy).  The Smurfs (comic characters) are blue with happy faces.  They have nothing to do with gloom. 

Blue is associated with the ocean and sky to embrace openness and caring.
Openness reflects the appreciation for curiosity, adventure, unusual ideas, and imagination over a strict routine.
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Be open to new ideas. If you limit yourself to what you were comfortable with earlier in your life, you will grow increasingly frustrated with your surroundings as you age. Many of us might not take on new things to think we don't have the skills. The good news is that almost everything is learnable. Are you ready to learn and make a leap into the unknown?

6.  Brown Earth Remind  Our Ethnic Heritage

Color: Brown
Sceneries:  Cesky Krumlov, Giza pyramids, earth and wood

​The color of brown elicits the earth and the wood. The brown earth color may trigger your sense of nostalgia. Sometimes, we feel lost in this big and complex world. We feel comfort in knowing our ethnic heritage. It gives you a history, a sense of place, and uniqueness about who you are, where you came from, and how you fit into the world. Everyone is not the same even though "we live in a time of mass-produced everything" (such as watching the same films, dressing the same fashions, using the same electronic devices). Through the travel experience, you will feel amazing to explore the cultural differences, remind us to respect other cultures, and inspire us to think about and celebrate our ethnicity.

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​In my twenties, I believed that traveling was a once-in-a-lifetime experience. Solo traveling was particularly appealing because it gave me complete freedom to decide where to go, what to eat, and where to stay. I was in control of my journey and made all the decisions. Although some people might warn you about the possibility of danger, threats, and loneliness, can anything in this world guarantee 100% safety? I love experiencing activities like skydiving for a 360-degree bird's-eye view of a magnificent landscape, trekking, boating in Nepal, or following the footsteps of ancient Incas in Machu Picchu, Peru. The adventure was out there. I had so much fun with excitement and embraced curiosity.

​Friendship is a source of happiness.  I used to enjoy traveling with my friends in my 30s something.  Although it was tough to carry a heavy backpack weighing 5kg and walk for miles to a motel with no toilet flush, experiencing the good and bad moments of the adventure with my friends made all the difference.  If your boyfriend was your travel-mate, it added more fun to your journey (but it would be a nightmare sometimes). I still remember my wonderful experience hanging out on the streets of Buenos Aires to see people dancing the tango out there, touching faces, men leading and women following. People were so sexy as if to invite you to dance with them together.

​Family vacation has become our annual family event. The backpack had changed to Samsonite. Travel has meant an Easter egg-riddled journey for the kids, but for me, it means anxiety more than excitement.  Right from the start planning and preparing for the journey, I can't get over the worries about non-refundable fares, tight schedules, security issues, or any other inconvenience unexpected things can happen along the journey.  Throughout the journey, the kids are talking non-stop, and eating takes us longer than others. But when I find the kids are having so much fun, I feel the contentment packed with their laughs and smiles.

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​Traveling is like a bird flying freely for thousand miles,
enjoying life anywhere and anytime. 
It may leave its footprints on the ground, cliffs, or snow
somewhere for some time.
It doesn't care which direction it flies in,
whether towards the east or the west.

​What is my perfect day all about?
I live at this moment in consciousness where everything takes place.
Sunshine, surrounded by natural wonders
Birds, flowers, green smell,
Full English breakfast, walk a dog.
Greeting with smiling faces, relax.
Do the work I love, gossip with friends, laughing.
Dinner with family, enjoy delicious food.
Read a book, feel good with fulfillment.
Have a good night's sleep.
 
I don't need to be wealthy to enjoy this perfect day. I only need to stay present.
Give thanks and practice gratitude.
 
Why is gratitude the highest form of energy with vibration frequency?
 
Gratitude makes you humble. Why?
Gratitude has the object of your appreciation. That means you can value more about others and all those beautiful things surrounding you, not merely a narcissist.
 
Very often, we hold our big egos in tight fists. Negativity creeps out whenever we react against someone to threaten:
My money
My house
My wealth
My feeling
My love
My family
My children
My job
My relationship.
 
All about me, me, me.
 
A humble person is more likely to exhibit kindness and generosity. He is well aware that:
 
Smart people learn from everything and everyone, average people from their experiences, and stupid people already have all the answers. - Socrates.
 
Intelligent people are humble to learn from everything and everyone. Expressing gratitude can help you remain humble and gain wisdom.
 
Accept the love and feel good about yourself.

It is only one piece of the puzzle.  
Do you want to see the whole picture? 
Do you want to transform your pain into love by understanding your emotions?  Explore the secrets to mastering your destiny through the three laws of the Universe, four strategies, and five-day challenges.

​Do you fear death? 
Do you fear being sick?
Do you fear pain?

When someone is seriously ill physically, the body’s function will break down one by one and finally undergo the four fatal processes.  Buddhism uses the metaphor of the dissipation of ground, water, fire, and wind to describe these processes.
 
Dissipate the Ground (bones)
The ground represents something hard and strong. It means bones. The first stage is that the bones are fragile, causing the person to become bedridden.
 
Dissipate the water (fluid)
The water represents the fluid from the body, such as urine, saliva, and stool. The
second stage is suffering from incontinence.
 
Dissipate the fire (warmth)
The fire represents body temperature. The third stage is reducing body temperature to
become cold.
 
Dissipate the wind (breath)
The wind represents breath. The final stage is short breath.
 
It sounds like the dissipation of ground, water, fire, and wind would eventually lead to death physically. What if I do the reverse spiritually to regain the energy of the earth, water, fire, and wind for healing? From the scientific point of view, energy and mass (matter) are interchangeable; they are different forms of the same thing. Under the right conditions, energy can become mass and vice versa (the formula of E=MC2).

Reprogram the innate belief system.
Self-affirmation to embrace confidence and self-worthiness.
I’m a precious adorable lovely angel.
Always remember a bird sitting on a tree is never afraid of the branch breaking, because her trust is not on the branch but on its own wings.
Believe in yourself.

​Peace in heart.
I no longer force things
Convince myself and the others to do the right thing
What flows, flows.
What crashes, crashes.
Let it be. Let it go.
I understand all that happens is right.
Out of every situation, the good will come.
I’m peaceful, balance, and safe.

​I follow my heart wisdom.
Connect with my inner wonder children, my authentic being.
I have the blessing and power to do my passionate work never short with meaning, magic and miracle to me.
I know what is my “be-do-have”.
I believe, I can, I have, I deserve, I choose to create the value align with my dream.

There’s nothing better than a world where everybody’s trying to make each other happy
If I can lie down at night knowing in my heart that I made someone’s day just a little bit better, I know I had a good day.
I love myself and surround with good people
I love to connect and empathy is the first step.
 
When I feel some part of my body get pain, I find this magic way to relieve my pain or even recover.
Amplify the vibration of my energy frequency, connect with my higher self, and receive tenfold energy back to my body.
 
You may regard it as wistful thinking or merely a placebo effect.
Anyway, this works for me and costs me nothing to use this simple way to heal my pain.

Process

1. Practice gratitude to make you feel grateful and generate positive energy.
2. Elevate your inner tranquility to achieve the state of calmness and gentleness.
3. Connect with your higher self spiritually and reclaim your body's energy.
4. Receive the tenfold energy to heal the illness part of your body.

​It is only one piece of the puzzle.  
Do you want to see the whole picture? 
Do you want to transform your pain into love by understanding your emotions?  Explore the secrets to mastering your destiny through the three laws of the Universe, four strategies, and five-day challenges.

One day, my coworker yelled at me in an abrasive manner because I had misplaced some files, causing trouble for her and making me feel I was an idiot.  It is not uncommon that I would shake with fury if someone criticized me or blamed me.
 
I almost always feel the madness with intense emotion ensue when my boss tries to discount me.  When my boss fired me after my 5-years tenure, I felt shocked, angry, and depressed.

I couldn’t overcome emotional suffering from failure as the negative feelings of anger, shame, and resentment affected my mental and emotional well-being.
Other people may not feel the same anger triggers as me.  When I scrutinize my iceberg, I realize there are two hardcore beliefs deeply implanted in my upbringing:

1. I do not deserve
2. I am not good enough

 
During my childhood, my mom always threw a tantrum when I failed to do what she wanted me to do and used harsh words to slander me.  Even worse, she was a perfectionist who always emphasized my weakness as if I was an idiot.  I always yearned for my mom to approve of me, but she only reminded me I was not good enough.
 
I desperately desired my mom to approve of me.
I believed if I pleased my mom to follow what my mom wanted me to do, I could get the benefits and obtain what I wanted.
 
As an adult, I continued to hold onto the same belief.  I used to think that if I pleased my boss or other people in positions of authority, I would get what I wanted.  If I could gain their approval, I would receive certain benefits.
And then, I realized I made two big mistakes.

1. I give up my power over allowing others to determine my worth.
2. My intention was merely for self-benefits, selfishly.

 
The inner wounded child will crawl out whenever someone criticizes me and makes me feel like I am not good enough.  The negative emotions stay long in my mind and are never gone.  Maybe God has a plan for me by arranging so many perfectionists around me to learn the lesson.  Not until I have removed these two destructive beliefs do I claim back my power to happiness.
 
What can I do to solve my problem?
How can I eliminate destructive beliefs and develop self-confidence instead?

Opinions from others do nothing for my worthiness.
I am the only one to be responsible and create my self-worth.
Someone who approves of me or praises me will not increase my value.
Same as someone who tries to discount me can never reduce my worthiness.
I am not the opinions of other people.
I cultivate my value with self-confidence.
I feel good about myself because I know my self-worth and want nothing from anyone.

It is nice to get personal benefits.  But that is not the only meaning of my existence in this world.  The self-fulfillment is to create value for others, not merely for self-benefits.

I once met a healthy man who was 100 years old. When asked about the secret to his happiness, he revealed that he woke up every morning with the thought that who were the persons God would send for him to help?
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When my ground is to believe in my self-worth with confidence, I will no longer care what other people think about me because I want nothing from anyone.
I feel happy and proud of myself, inside out.

It is only one piece of the puzzle.  
Do you want to see the whole picture? 
Do you want to transform your pain into love by understanding your emotions?  Explore the secrets to mastering your destiny through the three laws of the Universe, four strategies, and five-day challenges.

Alice came to a fork in a road.  “Which road do I take?” she asked.
“Where do you want to go?” respond the cheshire cat.
“I don’t know”, Alice answered. “Then”, said the cat, “it doesn’t matter.”
(Alice in the Wonderland)
 
Imagine being a ship captain without knowledge of weather, sea, navigation, ship function, and control. It would be like playing the lottery, hoping to be the winner but unlikely to be you.
 
You don’t want to be that naïve captain.

What is your clarity for  direction driving to  happiness?